A WOMAN who gouged out her own eyes while high on crystal meth has revealed she’s now drug-free and rebuilding her life.
Just three months after she permanently blinded herself using just her hands, Kaylee Muthart, 20, said she “feels like herself again”.
Kaylee, from South Carolina, was heard screaming outside the South Main Chapel and Mercy Centre on February 6 this year after she thought she heard God calling on her to make the gruesome “sacrifice”.
When parishioners ran out they found her holding her eyeballs in her hands and desperately tried to restrain her.
Now, following emergency surgery to clean her empty orbital sockets and undergoing treatment in hospital and a psychiatric facility, Kaylee says she “actually feels like a person”.
She told People: “I feel like myself, and I don’t feel like I’m chasing something.”
She continued: “It actually feels really nice.
“The way it worked out is the way God had it work out, that’s just the way it is… but I’d rather for it to have happened than to still be stuck in that world.”
The young woman has also participated in mobility and orientation training that has helped her become more independent – but she admits “feeling moments of considerable sadness”.
Kaylee said:”I’m a very optimistic person and I went in with an optimistic outlook – but at some points, you’re going to fall down.. That’s just life.”
She also said she finds her dreams comforting because they are, “colourful, and it’s like being able to see again”, and hopes to go to college to study marine biology.
She said: “There’s definitely something inside of me that wants to say, ‘Well, what else can I do now that I’m blind?’
“But something just cries out deep inside of me, ‘Go for your goal. Do what you’ve always wanted to do. Show everybody that you can do it.’”
Previously, she explained to Cosmopolitan how she ripped out her eyeballs in the drug-addled haze.
She said: “I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do.”
Worried worshippers then emerged from the church after hearing her screaming: “I want to see the light!”
She said the pastor later told her that by the time he reached her she was holding both her eyes in her hands.
Kaylee said: “I had squished them, although they were somehow still attached to my head.”
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